antifa supersoldier @commiequeer@anarchism.space

Hot take culture is shit. Let's just state our opinions with kindness. know that it's okay to change your mind and it's okay to be wrong. 🧡

Steal whatever ur little communist hands can carry

Remember: if you feel ugly, who is benefiting from that? Who profits off of your belief that you need to alter your appearance?

Accepting yourself as you are is a radical act. Love you all.

I tried to learn make up so i could be more "womanly" but I felt like a fraud in it. Also i was bad at it. it was uncomfortable for me to wear due to autism and sensory issues.

now i wear make up sometimes for fun. I'm good at it and I like it. I don't feel fake because I'm not trying to look like a woman. I just want to look cute!

it all made me feel very ashamed of myself. I leaned into it and tried to own it by acting out sexually.

it took me a long time to unlearn that shame. but now i know that I'm a worthwhile person and I'm more than a fetish object, while also being very sexy and desirable.

I'm not perverse and I'm far from the only person who wants "both sets" of genitals. :)

I *also* interpreted some of my desires to be dirty and fetishistic. My repulsion at the idea of being pregnant and being a mother was sinful and whore-ish. The primary function of sex is to create children with your husband, but I didn't think I even wanted to be a bride.

my longing to have a dick in addition to my vagina and my envy of feminine men, twinks and crossdressers, and trans women- i had only seen people like this in porn

In dating, i don't feel like I play any gendered role. I do what I want. But often i gravitate towards behaviors that are labeled feminine- caretaking, housework. I can be a bit of a demanding princess. And a pillow princess.

But I'm also good at planning dates and I can be assertive. I initiate sex when i want it.

Idk, these things feel very typical of a queer woman. but I'm not a woman lol

also, watching women interact with each other, i knew there was something between them that I would never have or understand. I had female friends but it wasn't the same. I felt like an imposter

I don't fully understand friendships between women but I'm okay with it now because I know I'm not a woman.

I felt like some kind of freak or a pervert. :(

I think the actual root cause of these things was me feeling deeply uncomfortable in my own body

I got to the social dysphoria part, and just... wow. I'd never seen anyone describe my pre transition experiences so perfectly.

I was afraid and uncomfortable in the locker room. I was afraid of looking at others and being looked at. I attributed this to me being attracted to women and being afraid of being a "predatory lesbian"

I was afraid and awkward about social touch, and complimenting others' appearances I thought I would do something wrong(????) I attributed that to social anxiety.

I'd never read the gender dysphoria bible before. It's worth the read for anyone who's interested

https://genderdysphoria.fyi/gdb/

the burdens of my poor mental health would be alleviated if capitalism wasn't a thing

I'd be really different if i hadn't been trapped in an abusive nuclear family

The duality between not wanting to explain my transgender identity to gatekeepers and also wanting to constantly talk about how badly i want to be a cute femme person with a gorgeous cock (AND NO UTERUS)

I love trans people so much, with every fiber of my being. we are my favorite.

I especially love genderqueer people. I love how our mere existence shatters so many preconceived notions about gender. that's so cool!!!!

I love that I'm trans. I wouldn't have it any other way.

don't assume anything about my experiences, presentation, gender, or transition based on me being AFAB. you're probably wrong.